I feel so shit and stupid now. Why do we have to live with imperfections? Why do we have to be the bottom of the crop? Why is life so unfair? Why do we only have the share of envy? Seeing other people living out their dreams or basking in their success really got me thinking. I don't wanna look back 10 years later and regret. ): But I know that I do not have the will or determination to achieve what I want either. Life sucks for me. At times like this, I feel that nobody understands. Nobody.

Whenever I'm sad, I'll do stuff that makes me happy. But these recent days, I find that there's nothing that I can do to make me normal again. ): I doodle, I write letters but it doesn't work for me anymore & idk why. Exasperated, shagged, hopeless, dispirited, uninspired and listless.

F.M.L.