Listening to this song right now right here in the middle of my lonesome night~ Chinese song really has more emotional factor in it, I feel like crying so badly right now. )':

I don't even know why am I so upset over one stinking phone call that never came at the right time. ): I hate all this girl moment. I hate being a girl sometimes. Why can't I just heck it & appear to be more cool about alot more other things? But then again, I can't deny that I'm upset & I don't wanna hide it... Hiding it makes me feel horrible, & utterly like shit. Been there, done that. So why should I put myself into all those shit again?

Why am I complaining again? I guess I just don't wanna feel discarded, forgotten, and thrown aside. Learn to be void of things that will make you upset Eileen, sincerely me.

Goodnight.

To my beloved aunt resting in heaven now. You've been good, and I regret having not spent enough time with you. A billion thanks for taking care of me through my adolescence years, rest in peace.