Just experienced the worst feeling in my entire life --- brought him to eat at pastamania today & turns our nothing was to his liking. Felt super dejected knowing that he isn't enjoying & isn't eating well despite already being hungry. It's the sian feeling you get when you know someone isn't responding well to what you're doing for him. ): Even though I don't feel as much as he do, it's still good to make him feel comfortable. I already knew this would happen so why the heck I still choose sucha location? I'm sucha moron, idiot, goon, etc...

I also realise that there is alot of differences in our lifestyle, so it makes me wonder sometimes if I'm doing the right thing... & if I should continue with it... But on the other hand, I don't wanna hurt him either. Why life has to be this complicated? I'd rather live life like a frog. =/

Studying for FMS retest now, fucking sian. Why the hell I skip the actual test? It's only heightening my stress level like srsly. Needa rant needa rant. Should have a puff tomorrow to unleash all this tension. I promise I'll only smoke when I feel like I needa relax, I won't. be. a. habitual. smoker. Y'all can smack me if I do. Alright, bye~