Hi, what is up. How's my new blog skin looking? ^^ Super love the stars in the bottle in the banner at the left. Actually I just wanna blog an entry to get rid of the chinese post title of the previous first post... Which is now below this post cos it looks like shiat with my new blog skin lol. Jason Chen looks spastic with his mouth half hanging anyway hahahaha.

Um, okay so today's National Day & I missed the fireworks spectacular cos I was sleeping. ): I really wanted to watch the fireworks okehhh, I haven't seen them in ages. & I needa get to the NDP stadium next year idc. They gotta let malaysians in no matter what. I wanna be right under the fireworks and whoa-ing. Like a retard hurhur.

Okay, so that's all, I needa start work now. Promised myself to start @ 1am & it's already 1.06 lol. Can't wait for exams to be over so I can go to hongkong with xiao val, work @ sogurt, and do up my barren wall in my room!!! So excited I'm alrdy on my tippy-toes!

OK, bye chow yu san, mthrfker. :P

Listening to this song right now right here in the middle of my lonesome night~ Chinese song really has more emotional factor in it, I feel like crying so badly right now. )':

I don't even know why am I so upset over one stinking phone call that never came at the right time. ): I hate all this girl moment. I hate being a girl sometimes. Why can't I just heck it & appear to be more cool about alot more other things? But then again, I can't deny that I'm upset & I don't wanna hide it... Hiding it makes me feel horrible, & utterly like shit. Been there, done that. So why should I put myself into all those shit again?

Why am I complaining again? I guess I just don't wanna feel discarded, forgotten, and thrown aside. Learn to be void of things that will make you upset Eileen, sincerely me.

Goodnight.

To my beloved aunt resting in heaven now. You've been good, and I regret having not spent enough time with you. A billion thanks for taking care of me through my adolescence years, rest in peace.

Hiiiii I'm back home from a super super shag day. I'm so tired I can fall asleep anytime on command. Just kinda taking a lil time to blog while waiting for my sister to come out from the shower. So nothing much today, had FP tutorial from 9 to 11am... Was alone for quite a bit after 2pm when the rest went for their tutorial & Val went off with her ravenclaw friends & Bernard had class as well. ):

Was kinda grumpy & moodless for the start of the day partly cos 1) I only had 4 hours of sleep, 2) I had to wait for my FRP group mate for 5hours 3) The sun was shining mercilessly on all the lone souls @ munch which includes me... So sian that I wanted to go home so badly, it would have been different if I actually had company ya know. )':

Somehow the day got progressively better after I got to the library & kinda had some alone time with my lappie. Watching videos, reading blogs, tumblring etc... I super duper like KevJumba/NigaHiga's Nice guy video, it was like on replay for me, watched the 3 different versions like 10,000 times each. ^^ + some of the stale kpop links my sis left for me on twitter & clicknetwork's dumb videos.

Good things started rolling in subsequently & elevated the boring tandem of a typical thursday school day. Note that I said ''I was alone for quite a bit after 2pm'' cos Luhan came to find me shortly after. So for starters, yay to company even though he was being an absolute asshole 90% of the time. Next, Claria ended early so we could start on the FRP video editing earlier... Then Bernard came & I was so happy to see him after like only a few hours of separation & I could smell him again~ ^^ And I had awesome bus drivers for the day as well. Got off 985 @ trellis tower & was rushing for the 154 bus infront of the 985, stood outside the bus door like an idiot waiting for the bus driver to open the door but guessing that he wouldn't cos he just looked at me & looked away, was already beginning to sulk then woo (!) he opened the door for me!! I was so freaking grateful that I said a super big thank you to the super adorable bus uncle. Not many a times you see such un-anal bus drivers okay!! Moreover, I was rushing to meet my sis @ cp so I really couldn't afford to waste time waiting for another 154, so I was reaaaaaally super grateful gratified grattitude & all. ^^ Lastly, my sis almost pangsehed me for her tv show & leave me alone going to cp obamaself but luckily she changed her mind saying I sound so ''kelian'' & all quoted from her text, weeee!!~ 3 cheers for awesome sissy. She had to go for nothing btw cos the shop that she was suppose to exchange her shoes was closed. & she wasn't the least bit grumpy otw home so awesomeeeeee. (:

Suddenly recalled that I woke up this morning thinking I'll never get pass today feeling so tired and all, & all I wanted to do was to give up & sleep in or cab to school later so I could sleep in a little more... But guess what, I got through today & happily. (: So glad I didn't give up. So thankful for persevering. So happy that such little actions above can make my day, and make me feel so much better, esp the bus driver. Feels good to be a human for once hahahahaha. Feels good that I'm blogging again. :D

I should really blog with some of the photos I've prepared for alot of blog post already but I'm just so damn lazy. Must go through all the photobucket & html shitttt. ): But I'll freaking try cos I just read through my past blog posts & found so many precious memories. So I'm gonna keep up this blogging hype as frequent as I can.

Okaayyy off for me to shower~ Meanwhile, these 3 songs have been spammed in my ears & accompanying me for countless bus rides for the past 3 days, just thought I'll put the embed code here. (: Just for memory sake, again.








We're made for one another,

me & you,

And I have no fear,

I know we'll make it through~


One day when the sky is falling,

I'll be standing right next to you~

Zomg hi, been sucha long time since I blogged. Choosing to blog @ 1.30am when I can choose to do so many other things likeeeee start on my FP video editing & downloading songs to my ipad, lol. Just thought that it would be good to fire off on my keyboard on random things that have been stealing all the time away from me in this world~

Okay to start off, today: I went to watch Transformers 3 with Bernard woo!! Accompanied him to watch, so I was actually rewatching it. Watched it twice & still think it's an super duper awesome movie. Optimus prime is freaking handsome & he has such sexy voice & exuding charisma. And bubble bee is also damn cute. ^^ Teehee. One should be my boyfee & the other my husband, Bernard can just go be with Rosie idc. :P

Love hugging the shit out of Bernard anyway been doing that for the whole of Transformers. It has only been nearly 2 months & I realise there's alot of things I can't do without on a daily basis. For e.g, smelling his neck, hugging, scolding him, seeing him do stupid things, & watch him laugh. They're practically the norms for all relationship but I just choose to see the things that we have with each other as exclusive. ^^ Love that we always say the same thing at the same time, love the late night calls, love sleeping beside him, love it when he download songs for me, love discussing our future together + our future kidz, love it when he paints my nails, love it when he sends me home, love his new-found initiative, love his serious stare (lol this is real) & his half smiles (this is also real!), love his jokes (!) & many many many mannnnyyyyyy other things that I'm just already used to but still finding them amazing that if anyone, were to take all of these away from me, I'll be fucking miserable at best. I'll be one sad girl like srsly cos Bernard's my sunshineboy- ): Lol. THAT'S HIS EMAIL AHA. :P

I'm really appreciative of what he did for me recently & the downside is that I just don't know how to show my appreciation. Been fighting over that matter for a while now & I think his final action really made a closure to that subject in my heart proper. & really like his new-found initiative on that matter. I pray for no more recurrences. & that things will be perfect from now onwards. *fingers crossed*

So yay, I'm a much happier girl now. Okay I just realise I just turned this supposedly to-be-an-update-of-my-life post into a Bernard-tribute post instead hahahahahaha. Oh well~ And since I'm already on it, I might as well just add a few more pics with him to end off this post:





I love ma boy, forever & always! <3
3 more days to our 2nd!

Talking to Binit on the phone now!!

Me: "Will you miss me if I'm away?"

B: "Where you go? If you go toilet, then I won't la..."

Me: "-.-"

OMGGGAWWWDDDDD. <3

Hehe writing it 3 times so I won't forget. ^^ Went to Jas's PJs party @ Hillview yesterday & it was so much fun! The best part was to see everyone in their funky/cute PJs. I think the guys made the most impression with all their crazy outfits. The NP guys were all wearing boxers of different cartoons + high soccer socks with birks. & Clement had this extra headgear thing that was like a pikachu head. He looked fucking hilarious & cute at the same time. I wish I had the photos in Seth's DSLR to illustrate my point but they've yet to upload. >: So it's okay. It's still indelibly etched in my mind. ^^ Whereas the SJI boys were wearing those matchy PJs thats like a full set. Bernard wore POWER RANGER PJs okay, he looked so much like a small boy + JoKwon. YongXun looked like he broke a leg, Yaoyi look like a cancer patient, & Luke just looked like a small boy who ran out of the child's ward. LOL! The girls were pretty much normal to me. Partly cos my brain auto-tune girls to be appropriate in wearing PJs, haha.

I thought Jasmine looked really pretty last night. ^^ With her "I'm the birthday girl" tee & her striped checkered maroon long pants + nice permed hair and earrings. (: Seth's so lucky.

THE BEST PART OF YESTERDAY WAS........





YAYYYYY~ He surprised me quite abit. (: Blue roses are fucking chio!! It's my favourite flower now. ^^ I reused the flowers & gave it to my mum as mother's day present, lol. =X Ahhhh didn't wanna use this tactic unless really necessary. Had to use it cos my mum was being quite a bitch with me coming home late. >: Sorry Binit.



Hi these are the girls in the bathroom changing to their gear @ the condo's toilet. ^^

Will try to upload/blog again after they post all the photos on facebook. CIAOZ. ^^